Saturday, April 25, 2009

Quantify 'finished'

One of the things theatre and knitting have in common is a definite, finite ending point. Extensions and projects-that-will-not-be-spoken-of notwithstanding, once the final curtain falls and the final numbers are in the piece suddenly becomes past tense and exists only in the memories of those who participated and another show is loading in the next day; once the work is blocked and the ends tucked tidily in, the piece becomes something to be worn in public, the WIP becomes a finished project on Ravelry and some needles are freed up for whatever is next.*

This finishable quality does not exist everywhere. Very few places, I've found, can say "aaaand we're done" and have it be true. It certainly isn't true when one looks at our world. Helping it. Living with it, not merely on it.

Part of that is quantity. There are a lot of humans (and other living, thinking creatures; but I think in the malicious actions category humans win hands down, so I'll be focusing on us. That and: I don't speak cat. Well. But LOLspeak doesn't count.) living here ("Heavy breeders," as Maldis said) and using the planet as best we can, but I don't think that's all. There's something to be said for intent.

Clive and I were talking about not wasting. He mentioned that for him and his brother, it was fairly automatic: they were raised by parents who had lived through the immediate after affects of the Great War and WWII in England. They didn't have anything, "and then they had us," and conserving was not only the financially smart thing to do, but it was a show of solidarity and patriotism. It was second nature, and a close second.

I can not say that our family had a lot. We always had enough, but that was frequently because we did without something else. It was never that final step of 'lights and heat or food?' but I have a feeling I have grandparents to thank for that. But for some reason that step farther, of reusing something until it was entirely disintegrated; of creatively doing something else so you don't even realize you're not being wasteful... There's a philosophical link missing. Or, I now think, not missing, but cauterized.

I live in one of the most plentiful, beautiful nations on our earth. People have come here to make something more of their lives. This is, I think, a place people come to so they don't have to conserve, or pay attention to how much they're using. We have all these amazing resources; how much more wasteful and ungrateful is it to not use them? Preserve? For what? The very idea is antithetical to the essential concept of this country.

Or rather, of what this country imagines itself to be. In truth, the notion of stewardship is an old one and not foreign here. The time is upon us - all of us, Americans or not, liberal or not, every person who lives on this planet having an equal share in responsibility for what happens to it - to consciously consider what we're doing here. And how we can make it better. 

This work - of caring for our planet - will never be finished. Hopefully.

*Please note a very tangible difference between knitting and theatre: while both very specifically depend on two parties (knitter and knitted for, production team and audience (and in both of these cases the two parties can be the same person)), both require a surprising amount of patience and faith and neither are taken too very seriously in the US, when knitting is done it lives on in the the finished product. Barring uncouth washing habits (or other things I won't think of since I've only had a little bit of caffeine so far today) that finished product will be what it is, give or take, until it dies. Ye olde performance piece, on the other hand, not only has no afterlife to speak of (and don't speak to me of videos. There's a significant difference between theatre and film, and to think that just watching someone's home video of a play is the same as being there is an insult to both media) but it's never the same one night to the next. Ever. It can't be. That's one of the amazing things about live performance, one of the things I love hearing from people who haven't ever been to see something professionally produced: it's something completely different from anything else they've experienced. Because they were a part of it. And no one who wasn't in that room that night will ever see that production. And the amazing thing is that this does not mean the performed arts are entirely mortal. They live on in the memories of everyone who was there. 

Monday, April 20, 2009

To Boldly [totally make this up] where I have not before

So, sitting in the DMV today, preparing to renew my ID (and I have a feeling my hair is crap for the picture. Seriously: would it be too much trouble to have a mirror there?), I took up needles and yarn and began a pair of socks. Only to look at the pattern and realize a) I would totally have an overwhelmingly wrong gauge; 2) I would have to sew up a seam and no*; and u) I didn't even really like the pattern as set anyway.

Instead, I boldly cast on 78 sts on US0s and am doing a k2 p1 rib for the top of the sock. I might still do cables, if those are considered manly enough for a London playwright. But first I think I'm going to consult EZ and maybe some others to make sure I'm not just screwing myself right over.

And I've almost convinced myself that if I do 'wing' these socks, after the gloveses, I should be totally ready to do the sweater. Well. Once I do a bit more research into the whole side-to-side seamless construction used here. Let me know when you're done drooling. I understand.

So research. Actually, no. First I'm going to Jupiter for a Heff and some pizza. Because nothing says "personal day" like a 3pm beer. As Clive (among others) always says: the sun is setting over the yardarm. Somewhere.

* Especially since I now am considering a lifetime of only doing toe-up socks because I loves not having to stitch up 8 loops. A whole sock's worth? So don't think so.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

The little things

Yesterday at work I attended a lunch celebrating birthdays from the first quarter of the year. (Be nice. There are 100+ employees. This makes celebrating manageable and actually happen. Plus I got free tasty lunch.) We went around talking about either our best birthday or what we did this year (I told both. That's just the way I roll.) and I mentioned buying myself a potted Lily of the Valley and the nice dinner Clive treated me to and told the story of Mel and Jeremy and The Vance taking me to snow my first birthday out here (which is still, to this day, the best birthday surprise. The bracelet from Jan is probably the best present, but I digress) and said something about missing the seasons and the taste of fall.

"The taste of fall?" queried our second-in-command. He's from California, but several others who clearly come from places where the leaves change colour and fall really is the year wiping down the counters came to my defense. When one of them asked if I missed seasons enough to go back, I said: "Not there. But somewhere with seasons, yes."

There is that saying "Don't sweat the small stuff." I don't know that I agree with that today. Not that I'm a proponent of freaking about every little thing, but the small stuff (the colour of the shadows under a clear blue sky, voices singing in harmony, the feel of something knitted) is what gives substance to life. I want to notice it, let it touch and affect me.

What I don't endorse is the freaking out part. I just wish there were an on/off switch for the panic. Or rather, I wish I could find the 'off' switch. Fine seems to be fully functional.

I've been a week, maybe two, with empty needles. That, I believe, will be changing tonight. I'm feeling the need to make some socks coming strong and fast. There's a certain playwright who I promised socks to a year ago (though I don't think he took me seriously. Which is (of course) a challenge.) and I think once I get one project going the rest will just follow.

But for the moment I'm enjoying the idea of working at my own pace and the feel of the air. You know: the little things.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Not even coming up for air

That might take too long. Breathing. Plus I know I have 4-5 minutes with no breathing before I would start suffering from brain damage (gotta love First Aid/CPR training. And I now know how to use and AED _and_ I've mostly stopped having nightmares wherein I have to perform CPR. It just keeps getting better!!) so wouldn't it then and therefore make sense to stop with the breathing so much? Where's the engineer? I have some suggestions.

Life has been... going. Full speed. I am in the 6 1/2th level of hell (Dante apparently didn't notice this one) attempting to schedule a meeting. A as in one. One. Three. Hour. Meeting. And it's been a spectacular fail, glorious in it's absolute and utter inability to get accomplished. I mean, seriously: if I could get the positives in my life to happen with such ferocity, I'd be golden.

And that's theater. Helping Theatre FIRST out a very little bit with "Old Times" and trying to see some stuff (like One Man Lord of the Rings. Funny, funny stuff. So good.) before rehearsals start the 28th.

I've been knitting, um, nothing. But it's not my fault. I re-read the Anne books and am first time reading the Kent Family series and getting my video game on. None of which is very knitting friendly. But there are a number of ideas percolating. I have a feeling the drought will soon be over and I'll be clicking needles again.

And some wonderful lovely walks with Clive: Mount Diablo and Briones specifically. Hopefully to Boulder Creek this weekend because I miss the calm that just settles on me at Frank and Martha's. I wonder if they would notice if I just invited myself to stay there for like a year...

Watching the economy and the world with something like trepidation but also with hope. We, the citizens of this world, are due for a bit of a shift. A new, disturbing, uncomfortable world would be good for us, if only to grant a bit of perspective. What will it look like? I don't know. But hopefully it will look different. We need a new age.

I, like just about everyone else in the electronically connected world, have been delighted with Susan Boyle's performance on Britain's Got Talent (no links because if you're curious, just google it and you're inundated) and I have therefore had Les Miserables stuck in my head all week. Do you know how tenacious that show is? Like a little kid who's learned "The Song that Never Ends."

And that's me. Where I've been. I'm getting closer to my skinny jeans size, which I'm happy about because I like my 'skinny Kristin' clothes very much and I've missed wearing them, and hopefully I'll be able to climb those hills without wheezing. Everyone has a dream. Mine is just a bit simpler than some.

And how are you?